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huh!! i dunno y…but i feel so so damn hurt…so so damn sad…..so so damn dissappointed now…..haihhh…..

BACK OFF ALL ASSHOLE OUT THERE!!!!!!

LIfe is just just NOT FAIR AT ALL!!!!!!

Bilakah dia tahu
Apa yang tlah terjadi
Semenjak hari itu
Hati ini miliknya

Mungkinkah dia jatuh hati
Seperti apa yang kurasa
Mungkinkah dia jatuh cinta
Seperti apa yang kudamba
Bilakah dia mengerti
Apa yang tlah terjadi
Hasratku tak tertahan
Tuk dapatkan dirinya

Mungkinkah dia jatuh hati
Seperti apa yang kurasa
Mungkin kah dia jatuh cinta
Seperti apa yang kudamba
Tuhan yakinkan dia
Tuk jatuh cinta
Hanya untukku
Andai dia tahu……

Hey now already in August…1st week of august…we’re going to the end of the year of 2005….so fast..life is just too short…

It seems like I only have time to post this blog once a week…i am tooooooooooooo bz with my commitment with work and study…..darn….

After been so stressed in the office and so long never go jogging…exercise or wut so eva..last saturday..i went for jogging with sazul,my youngest sis and 2 lil nephews..hehe..pagi2 dah nak ikut org.. ;P Lame gila jogging..brape round tah…penat gak la..lame gila x pegi jogging…tp best sgt..sbb boleh keluar peluh byk2..rase mcm sihat gila…pastu mcm byk gila lemak terbakar..aahahah!!!! ya rite!! terbakar la sgt….

Then after jogging..went to see skin specialist…buat medical check up la..ape la..sbb rase bdn ni too weak la…stress sgt…nak kena gi mintak consultation frm dr….pastu rehat jer on saturday tu….kat umah…buat la sikit2 asgmt…bykkkk laaaaaaaaaaa….arrrghhhh…byk lagi belum siap…ishhhh…

Then next day pulak pegi class..mcm biase…tp x pegi class kenegaraan sbb malas..in fact..si mie dah hasut2 nak gi shopping2 brg rumah dia nak pindah putrajaya….so..ape lagi….cabut la awal…pastu gi shopping…ya Allah….byk betul spend..gile gile…sungguh MEGA aku membeli belah….ahahaha…megasale la konon….so..shopping kena lah MEGA MEGA sikit ;P ngeh3

I bought bag,lots of clothes….clothes…ngeh3…suke suke….mmg suke bab bab nak abiskan duit ni..ishh…noor ain!! stop it!! muahahaha

Yesterday..Monday..FRIENDHIP DAY rupanya…itu pon sbb yuzrand bg msg mlm2…if not..x ingat pon…then wish la sume kwn2…yg sempat…then smlm fakhrul bg msg..comel sgt…org reply kat dia benda sama…pastu dia ckp x aci pulak sbb benda yg sama hehe…

Mlm td….bile teringat blk frendship day….rase rindu yg teramat sgt pulak kat kwn2 sume…yes…betul as wut sazul  said…"i hate growing up!! everybody is busy!!"

yes yes..obviously….i hate growing up….dulu bile time sek…best sgt2…then semua dah start go with their own path..yg masuk kolej la..u la…dok jauh2 la..then kwn2 kat kolej pulak..dulu…like everytime dgn kwn2….so sad..bile skrg..makin lame..makin jauh….kalau nak jumpa ke..contact ker..semua dah x cam dulu…sebaknya sgt biler ingat benda2 ni….sbb mase study dulu…mcm gembira sgt2..mcm2 pernah rase…sedih la….

That’s y….dulu…bile ade prob…if u keep it..ur frens sure will realise tat u’re having probs…and they will always be by ur side when u’re expressing all the probs…but now…instead of keeping it inside…and nobody to be around…to listen to all our expressions…we rather throw it than just keep it….to reduce the burden….coz there’s a lot more to go….hmmm…actually what we really need is just a fren….when there’s a fren…it’s good enough to make us feel appreciated…loved & cared….

Hmm..tah la…i really miss my moment with all frens….dulu…ingat lagi….mase kolej….bile one of us break off ker…semua akan rase yg sama…sebak sgt…sbb time tu..kwn2 lah yg setia jd pendengar…penasihat….punching bag…semua la…i still remember….mase mula2 masuk kolej….pastu after few sems…i broke off with my 1st bf…mase tu mcm teruk gila…tp yg selalu comfort me..emma..yash…sada…ina..sarah…salpa…eddy..chot..pecal…diorg ni la…yg tiap2 ari akan dgr semua cerita sedih…tatap muka yg menangis tiap2 ari..tiap2 saat….yg bg hopes…..yg kuatkan semangat….yg cheer me up…..yg changed all my perception towards the prob….Tuhan je tahu mcm mane kusut and teruknye mase tu…mcm org x boleh terima ape yg dah jadi….after 1 yr…everything goes fine….

Rindu sgt2 dgn yash….dgn liana…dgn sada…dgn EMMA!!!….itu lah teman tido sama2…sama2 buat kerja jahat…sama2 kutuk mengutuk…ketawa kuat2…besar2….enjoy sama2….tp semua tu lah dah makin lame..makin susah nak jumpa..i juz miss tat moment….seriously…sebaknyer rase…..rindu teramat sgt sgt sgt sgt…..now..everybody is growing up……and every is so busy with their life…their work..hmmm….i just hope that i could turn back time…so tat i could spend more time with them….i dun wanna lose anyone of them…at ALL!!!

Skrg ni…bile terlalu sibuk dgn kerja….kdg2 rase empty….bukan sbb nak xde bf ker..ape ker…tp sbb jarang dpt spend dgn kwn2 ni semua…i miss them all so very much…..i miss all the laughters….

Fakhrul..nuar…sazul…bile nak pegi melaka sama2 mcm dulu??

Ina..sada..sarah ..salpa…bile nak genting lagi mcm dulu??

YAsh..i rindu nak jumpa u..citer probs same..semua sama2…emma…bile nak borak2 mase b4 nak tido…nyanyi2 sama2….cerita2 sama2…gelak sam2..mcm dulu????

Chot..lisha…azaniah…zati..ekah…bile nak kuar sama2 mcm dulu??selalu spend time together??

Eddy..amai..cd..bile nak jumpa selalu??? arai….bile nak jumpa?? nak gossip2 selalu??

Fakhrul…kita ade myk memori sama2…i rindu tu semua sgt2…gi sahur sama2….mcm2….nuar..i miss to lepak..go shopping with u and fakhrul..i nak jumpa u nuar…bile nak go bfast sama2 mcm dulu???

Sabqi…kita dah x close mcm mase mula2 dulu…i dunno why..pls dun put any barrier between 2 of us..i feel so sad…i just hope kita close mcm dulu…i love our frenship…i need and want u as wut u are last time…mcm mase kita mula2 kenal..

Hmm….I just hope..i can get all my good memories back & won’t lose anyone of my friends…

Thank You a lot..really appreciate you guys a lot and will always cherish all the memories……